My hope is that this storyline will allow both characters to grow, and only strengthen their relationship. I feel like April and Jackson really need to spend some time understanding themselves and the way they think, as well as understanding the way the other thinks.
April as a character was picked on, even by her own sisters, seen as an ugly duckling, was never the girl that got picked at the dance. She has insecurities, and it’s not that surprising that she would think her own husband doesn’t accept her for who she is, not many people ever have. Having a relationship with god taught her that everything happens for a reason, that she has somebody to communicate with that will always understand, love her, give her a second chance.
Jackson on the other hand wants to be strong all the time, and pushes everything down until it inevitably blows up in his face. I mean his dad walked out on him and his mother when he was however young. He’s lost multiple friends (Mark, Lexie, Charles, Reed) from awful circumstances. If you can’t count on your own father, or friends for whatever cruel reason to always be there for you, you aren’t going to count on some higher-being either. You’re likely to believe in what you can see, what you can touch, what has proven itself to you.
And there is nothing wrong with having certain characteristics and opinions, coping in certain ways or living how you want to live. But the thing is they are married now and like it or not the ‘you do you and I do me’ mentality will not work in all situations. Especially when they have to think about children.
They’ve had different upbringings, different life experiences, every married couple has. Jackson is used to pushing and relying on himself. April has only had so much experience with sharing her life with a partner. But they love each other. They are each other’s person. They just need to take a step back and try to look at things from the other’s point of view. They don’t have to have the same beliefs, but they both need to admit that right now they are not respecting the other as much as they should (there is no need for calling someone’s religion ridiculous, or pitying somebody else because they don’t believe in what you do) and for god sakes, start to properly communicate their thoughts and feelings.
After everything they’ve been through, how many times they’ve proven they love each other, there is absolutely no reason for them to not realise that’s it’s okay to open yourself up and let someone who loves and cares about you in.
But of course this is just my opinion on the characters, and I just want my OTP to be happy again